Nostalgia

The Uhaul trailer is all packed and ready to go. My car is awaiting its final suitcase and pillow before its departure tomorrow. And I really am excited to have a job and be teaching this year. Yet the past several days have been full of nostalgia and intensely missing what I once had, those that once surrounded me. I know living alone will have certain benefits, but for those of you that know me at least moderately well know how much I love people. The apartment will, no doubt, feel very empty at times. And somewhere deep down that really scares me, and it hurts like all get out. The summer did not pan out as I had expected or hoped, and I can't see God's designs for me in this year as it is definitely far from what I had planned for myself. Yet a dear teammate so wonderfully reminded me yesterday to trust. Just trust God. I thought I had that lesson down earlier this summer. Apparently not. I'm a slow learner.

Dear friends, I miss you terribly. And I dreadfully wish for those times when we could simply gather on the couches in Fairlane, play Guillotine, and share laughs. I miss the craziness, the long nights after track meets, and the joy that you brought to my lives.

Although I may be hesitant at the prospects of life right now, I know it will still be okay. Life is still good. I'll get over the change soon enough. And maybe I'll even enjoy it once and a while. ;)